a part of me just wish that you'd hold on to something,
a momento that encapsulates our friendship.
and keep it dear to your heart.

i'm tired,
goodnight.

Tmr will be a whole new happy day. (:

bit my tongue while sneezing this morning,
and now the ulcer is still there!

anyway i realise that being sick 1 week before exams is a Ritual for me. as far as i remember, i've always been sick 1 week before exams! haha, pure coincidence or fate? realities of the drawing near of exams have somehow not sunk it, Yet. and i'm very very afraid, cus everytime i study, i dontknow if its really considered studying. cus dribs and drabs of information leak out and i cant rmb stuff. ):

like what limin said last time,
nothing gets done till the last minute.



this pic was taken in Aust.
jing&i passed by this place en route to a flea market.

reminds me of how ter always calls jiawei smelly!
(:











just, COOL lah.
it's not a picture taken off gettyimages or what.
fengyi watched a rowing competition while in US! (:

fengyi: hope you got past the rowing tryouts! (: no freshman 15 i see, when i webcammed with you that day, heh. (:





you know sometimes i realise that, i've grown up. in retrospect, i gringe at what i did/said last time to a person/people. it doesnt matter now, anymore. yes i grimace at it, but no, i do not regret. it's ____ how time can change so much. the human feelings is just pure, inexplicable. i no longer feel that strange twist of excitement talking to you, or that suspense in waiting for your next message. but since then, i havent found anyone who's able to take your place.

or maybe, i've developed apathy. the indifference towards whatever's happening around me. maybe i've distanced myself away from people, avoiding conversations what would dig deep into the sore areas of my life. the issues i try so hard to suppress, the thoughts&feelings i do not wish to rekindle. but yet they say, talking about stuff makes you know yourself more, yadah yadah. but noooo, i'd rather live in the delusionised world of my own! leading superficial friendships of laughters, beliving that the world is actually a very happy place. (:

infantility, as BNW would mock at me.

i just feel like a turtle.
living in the little shell of my own, unconcerned by the outside world.

but i know, someday, somehow,
i've to come out of my shell,
out of the comfort zone.

but i'd leave that to someday. (: